With Heart, With Beat, With Life
Hey, Adam! Is there something missing?
Hello! Yes, a cup of tea before sitting down to do this interview. Seriously though, I often feel that not enough is missing, you know? Things are buried rather than absent.
You know, from what I know - for every authentic artist, there’s a longing to go beyond, beyond all that we have known to finally come home. Are you experiencing your life somewhere in between or closer home?
Having people you can be authentic with feels like home, and I am blessed to have people like that in my life. I think we all go back and forth, but as of now maybe I do feel a little “in between” and I’m trying to figure out why. I think it’s just being in your 20’s in general, ha.
Is it a lot of work to bring what’s inside of you?
If bringing what’s inside me speaks to my feelings/experiences/thoughts, then for sure, it’s work to carry that around. It should be work though! For it to be effortless would give me no clue that I’m really living.
I can understand that sometimes a song has a feeling to it, sometimes it’s imagination. Can you tell us where your imagination is rooted?
My imagination is rooted in my ideals, I think most artists can relate to that yeah? It’s part of that drive to create. I’m often sifting through my experiences and trying to find a lesson in them.
People use music to abandon themselves, to forget themselves - and yet some use it as a means of meditation. What would you use music for?
I’d say more for meditation. I think that’s why I’ve gravitated to the chiller side of music. The energy level can allow you to think along with the music.
When I listen to the music that you have within you, and how it’s reflected through different instruments, especially during your calendar project. I have felt your music to create a certain spaciousness where much is possible. From enthusiasm to melancholia. For each of these moods, is it because where the music is coming from or from where it’s finally received?
Interesting question! Music is conversation yeah? So I’d say it’s little of both: where it’s coming from and where it’s received. I have a feeling I want to convey and I certainly do think about how to translate it for the listener. To make music and not think about the listener is to have a conversation with yourself - which, you know, some musicians I wouldn’t mind eavesdropping on.
Coming back to the imagination, what do you most like to create with your imagination?
I often imagine big, vast open spaces in which only I can walk in. I often think about if I was truly alone, how would I come to accept that. Some might think this is a dark line of thinking, but I personally find it entertaining.
..and can you tell us in-depth about where your music comes from? What’s the process of creating any of your given tracks? Bringing something of beyond the words into the world?
The main sounds in my music have to be something I recorded, it’s let’s me more easily assess where the sounds fit into the feeling I want to convey. I used to sample from various sources on either vinyl or YouTube when I was first experimenting with my style, but I’ve come to accept and embrace limitation and just use what I have on hand. It feels more genuine to the tunes I want to make.
What about the moments where you are absolutely shaken emotionally, do you make music from those moments?
Ahh, I don’t think I can honestly. I know some artists use their art as a form a catharsis, but me personally, I have to be past the feeling to understand it and talk about it. I think that’s why my tunes have that introspective vibe to it.
Could you talk to us about the significance of Ambient music, and how it can lead towards a state of equanimity?
You know, I thought ambient music was the most boring thing at first. I have a friend who eventually successfully got me into ambient tunes, but it wasn’t loved at first listen. As I got older, I got more comfortable with my thoughts, rather than running from them. Ambient music can be great “thinking wallpaper.”
Is there any particular experience, that gave your music a greater depth? And if there’s a poem that’s closest to you?
Tough question. Hmm, thinking way back I’ve always thought music was cool, I had songs I really liked because they were “cool.” When I heard a nocturne from Chopin for the first time, that’s when I first remember feeling understood through music - can I count a piece of instrumental music as a poem? If a song can make you feel vulnerable/understood, then it is speaking directly to you, and this can have the ability to save a life. I don’t know if this gave my own music a greater depth, but it gave music a more profound meaning to me.
Lastly, what would you suggest or share with other musicians?
Oh man, I could go on & on this one, but here’s what I’d say based on where I’m at right now: be compassionate with yourself, you will always be closing the gap between where you are and where you want to be, that will never end. It is your responsibility to give people a reason to listen to your music, no one owes you their time just because you worked hard on a song. The quality of the hours is where progress is made, not the quantity of hours. Slick production & technical virtuosity do not compensate for hollow songwriting. Lastly, I’d say the path isn’t always fun, but it is always rewarding.
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